Went to the doctor today and she said I am not dilated but completely thinned and she could feel his head pushing down. Baby Brother had been a little less active the last few days and when they listened to his heartbeat on the doppler it was 120 (down from the 145-165 it normally is) and while it was still in the normal range they wanted me to sit on the monitors for a Non-stress test for 30 minutes following my appointment. Of course my trusty side kick was there too waiting oh so patiently for the two of us to get bagels after my appointment ;)
Everything came back normal and we ended the appointment with this unfamiliar phrase...
"All we're waiting for now is for you to go into labor!"
It's been amazingly different this time around. I'm more active, I have a beautiful toddler to take care of and I'm even still taking my prenatal yoga classes. At the beginning of my third trimester I had a few rough weeks with some anxiety that came flooding back. I felt like such a failure in my third trimester with Owen - even though I succeeded in carrying him to term. Lots of things surrounding bed rest/birth/postpartum were hard on me and in retrospect could have been handled very differently.
This time, if I wanted to feel strong and confident, I needed to change my own mind.
I credit much of this to the doctor's managing me. They never once made me feel like I couldn't do this. Sure, I contracted A LOT but they let me stay on my feet and kept me calm. I think the p17 shots worked wonders for me in terms of cervical length. And we did it.
We are so incredibly excited to meet this little guy. We continue to pray that he is born strong and healthy. We hope that Owen adjusts well to having to share my attention and that we can all eventually get some sleep :)
i remember the day i was "the most pregnant i've ever been" and still marvel that my body carried H 15 days further than her big brother. the fact that i carried her further without drugs, off p17, really makes me wonder if i could've done it without so much bedrest, too - but no use crying over spilled milk, i guess. my girl is here and healthy and that's all that matters.
ReplyDeletetam, i love everything about this post. the fact that you have done it while also caring for O has me so in awe of you. i see your boy in your pictures at your appointments and i think you are amazing - and so is he, being so patient and understanding...what a little love you have! i am overflowing with joy for you as you get set to welcome your gorgeous #2. you rocked it, mama!
xoxo
What a huge milestone!!! We are so excited for you and can't wait to meet the newest little addition. I hope you are able to soak up these last few precious moments as a family of three and feel ready for baby boy's arrival! PS- Where did you get that white shirt?
ReplyDeleteyou. are. a. rockstar. mama.
ReplyDeletethats all i can say. i'm SO excited for you guys :)